playing hide and seek with myself.

Mmmm whatcha say,

i find that im losing my way, with words.

like word vomit, i cant keep things in sometimes.

and i make things worse when i mean to make things better

Mmm that you only meant well?

i do mean well,

but there are things i shouldnt say to people

lies i shouldnt tell

truths i shouldnt speak

well of course you did

yes, of course

because i wear my heart on my sleeve

and play my cards too far from my chest

Mmmm that it's all for the best?

well i think that lifes better when you have no secrets

dont you?

of course it is

but there are secrets i keep

that i wont/cant/will never tell a soul.

and things, memories i hate to have in my head but i cant get rid of.

ever.

Mmmm whatcha say?

im just broken.

im not sure what im supposed to do - theres no walkthrough, map, or guide book to life.

'there is always a choice' but what happens when you make the wrong one?

you have to live in regret.

that it's just what we need

i dont want that!

i cant have that, to live wondering where i went wrong

or if i went right.

how do i live with choices im not sure are wrong or right?

you decided this

yes, i did.

but i would have liked it if you had taken that decision out of my hands..

but life doesnt work like that.

whatcha say?

and now i have to live with what ive done, because people rarely get second chances.

and never get thirds.

i have to learn how to pick up, and move on from this sliver of space

occupied by two bodies, entwined in bedsheets and mistakes.

Mmmm what did she say?

she didnt say anything,

which is why im here having a conversation with a song.

but it was a lot of help,

thanks.